Counting is all I do, all I think about.
Exactly a week from today I’ll be getting ready for Danny to be home.
I need to keep pushing myself to stay busy every single day.
It’s so nice hearing how much Danny is excited to come home. I know he’s excited to see me and I know he’s looking forward to getting some rest in his own bed and just being in the comfort of his own home. Considering he bought a house and only lived in it for a couple months before the military sent him off.
I’ve been so lucky to have the motivation to keep up and even get ahead of all my assignments for this semester. I have yet to feel the anxiety of being almost done (10th week). The only thing I’m anxious about is that I’m almost done! I can’t believe I’ve only got a few weeks this semester and one more semester after that! It’s crazy! I think I’ll finally feel like an adult once I have that degree and I’m no longer in school sitting in boring classes and doing pointless homework assignments.
Talking to Danny on the phone last night also made me realize he’ll only be deployed for six months (as long as nothing changes). And it’s really going to suck. But I know there are people out there who wait longer and go through worse things in their lives. But hearing him say out loud “six months”, made me feel better. It’s like it’s only just now hitting me. We’ve been through almost two right now and it seems to have gone by faster than I thought it would. Not to mention almost five of the months he’s deployed I’ll be in school working my ass off to graduate.
I feel like I’m going crazy because I’m getting so excited to see Danny! It’s been 18 days since he told me he was coming home to visit, and we still have 18 more to go!
Sooo we’re half way there!!! But no matter how busy I try to be I still feel like I’m just constantly trying to rush the time! I basically have a to-do list for every single day.
I started yoga on top of my couch to 5k. And it was more difficult than I thought it would be. And I’m not as flexible as I used to be 😦 Hopefully that will change though. I hope I’m doing everything right. I’m sore so at least I know I was getting a work out.
I’m pretty much on top of things with school. I’m all caught up and I could work ahead, but then what would I do in November?
There’s a stressful situation going on at school in the Anthropology department so that’s also weighing on my mind. I will feel so much better once that is resolved!
It’s just difficult to stay so busy to the point that I’m distracted. And some times it difficult to simply be happy. Lately at work the stress level has been through the roof. It doesn’t take as much as it used to get me pissed off and ready to scream. I keep thinking “oh maybe after some rest I’ll feel better” and things like that, but nope. This isn’t even the deployment yet. I can’t imagine what seven months will be like. I’m just hoping I’m stuck in a negative funk and I’ll work my way out of it soon.
Exactly three weeks from today Danny will be home! (only for the weekend but that’s good enough for me!)
It seems like such a long time though! Trying to stay busy is way more difficult than I’d thought it would be!
My uncle took me to the movies the other day, which was nice of him. I’m pretty sure it’s because my mom told him I had been pretty sad lately.
And tonight will be full of work. And it’s nice how much you don’t dread work when you know the manager you dislike wont’t be there. He got transferred! I was so ridiculously happy when I found that out.
I just hope these next three weeks go by quickly. I might lose my mind if it keeps dragging like this.
But I did start the couch to 5k program on Monday. And it only required me to run Monday, Wednesday and Today this week.
But I already noticed a slight difference today! So as long as I keep with it I should be able to run a 5k (3.1) miles in 10 weeks. Which seems like a really long time to achieve that but I like sticking to an organized plan. And hopefully I’ll be starting yoga soon. Just on my own though, so I just need to find some videos/websites or whatever I like to get me going.